I have been thinking about something in a sermon that I preached quite awhile ago that I remembered recently. Something I need to hear and be reminded of right now. From my sermon on 1 Samuel 27 (if you want to see the Scriptural context), I made this bit of application <in italics below> in one of the main points:
The voice of despair speaks into our lives, as well. If you think about it, you will realize that we are always speaking to ourselves. We have conversations with ourselves about our lives. I’m not talking about hearing voices, nor am I trying to psychoanalyze here. I’m talking about the inner monologue or even dialogue (if we get to arguing with ourselves) that takes place in our heart. One commentator said that “all of us propagandize our souls”. And if the propaganda is something other than the truth of God’s Word, His Character, His Sufficiency, His Promise, then we are in trouble and might begin to look to Philistia for our salvation, than to the Lord.
Who would you say is David’s greatest enemy? The easy answer is Saul. And certainly Saul has been a great enemy of David. But the reality is that David is his own worst enemy at this very point. And we are our own worst enemies. We too look for heavenly comfort from earthly sources. We buy into the idea, telling ourselves this lie, that “if only” I had or I was __________, then everything would be okay. And those lies then shape our decisions and the direction of our lives. David is the fainting king. And we’re just like him – not kings mind you – but full of fainting, faltering faith.
What does the voice of despair say to you? What do you say to yourself in dark moments? Where are you tempted to run instead of the Lord? And what does God say to you, about you and about your circumstances? My guess is that they are quite different, if we actually get around to seeing what God’s Word has to say to us. I know that that is my need. I need a different voice in my head and you probably do to.